Feelings of insecurities

Today was the first day for teachers to go back for school. It was not as pleasant as I would've hoped and I felt very insecure. This year I will be teaching 8th grade science and social studies. You would think I'd be completely confident being married to Jake with science because he's the expert and everyone in the district loves him.  Multiple times when I was introduced, it was my name and he was my hubby. The challenge ahead of me is to aspire to be as good as he is in science. He is very well respected. I became a little annoyed today that he freely gave everyone all his work and information. (I was hoping that would be an advantage I had) He said it was obvious that I became annoyed and he's certain everyone knew it and his colleagues may think we have a bad relationship. Yet, that's not true...we have a great relationship in my book and anyone whoever hears me speak of him would know that. I was hoping that together we would be a duo an collaborate but right now at this moment, I feel that I am a hinderence to him. So, I guess here's to praying for improvement on my part and a better tomorrow than I've had this far. I am home thirty minutes before I'm off to PTA and to a little real estate after that.