Parenting Fails

Concluding our fall break, we spent the Friday at the zoo with our little crew.  It was a terrific time. A week later, this past weekend, I experienced my hardest parenting weekend.  The boys and I drove to Paris on Saturday for Clark's 1st birthday but Will ended up getting in trouble.  He decided to get into a fight with Riley, claiming it was self-defense.  Often I fear that I am failing my Heavenly Father, my husband, and my children when it comes to parenting.  I fear that I am not helping my children realize their divinity. Saturday evening, Ginny and I got into a nice argument and it blew up again Sunday again.  In hindsight, I am not even sure that I know the gist of it all but I do know that damage was done and I need to work very hard to repair it.  To make it even more hurtful, tonight we brought Ginny down and grounded her for the first time ever.  This decision was made last night but we wanted to address it when it was more calm.  The hardest thing is knowing she is such a good girl and she is hurting. We explained this can be a defining moment in her life.  Afterwards, I came to my room and just cried. Jake went outside and called his mom. This parenting stuff is so incredibly hard, especially having to be the disciplinarian. My heart hurts so bad and my eyes have now been swollen the last two mornings and I am uncertain that tomorrow will be even better for me eyes. I can only pray for Heavenly Father to help me know what I need to do for my children, after all they are his children too and he knows them best.  I am hoping that they feel love from me and never feel like they are a burden or that I do not have time for them.  Jake and these four crazies, I cal, my kids, are my greatest treasures.

Happy Fall Break

Fall break began today officially for our crew. However, Jake and out three oldest kiddos left for Houston early Saturday morning so dad could spend some time with his brothers.  He and Ginny attended an Astros's game with them that afternoon.  Christopher stayed home with his momma and we began putting out our Halloween decor before general conference and Sunday we visited Jackson to see dad and my sisters.  Sunday evening, Christopher got sick and it has now been 24 hours and he's still not well.  We watched Charity's kids today but he spent most of the day sleeping. No mother likes to see their babies not feeling well. 

Last Thursday, I took the boys to one of our school football games.  Christopher came out of his room with lynx paws stamped all across his forehead, it took quite a bit of alcohol to get it off.  Will and Christopher auditioned for choir earlier last week and made it.  Both were happy and Christopher's teacher sent home a photo to celebrate.  He has been singing You are My Sunshine non stop.  He has a sweet little voice and tries so hard.  We have increased his speech to five days a week. After speaking with his teachers and speech therapist, we feel that is most beneficial for him at this stage in his life. it is unfortunate that he will miss more of core content classes at school but he is aware of his speech issues and the older he gets the more collaboration occurs.  Jake and I can keep his academics afloat.  Will, now Will, has the voice of an angel.  He sings beautifully!  His favorite song to sing is Radioactive but he can sing it as often as he'd like, he sounds so good.