Boo-

 Tonight I disappointed my husband, not intentionally but I did. The look in his eyes hurt my heart. It makes me so very sad. Although I do not see the harm, it was a big deal to him and I do not want him to ever feel hurt by me nor that he can’t tell me things. 

My parents stopped in tonight and that was nice to visit a minute or so. As I watched them both, I could see they are aging and that too made me sad. 

After I put the kids to bed and went to shower, I looked on my hand and noticed my Mamaw’s star ring. I felt as if she was telling me everything was okay and could feel her hugs, the hugs I remember as a teenager. Oh, it felt good. Then I recalled the double beautiful rainbow I saw last night and felt a little more peace. Although I am disappointed in myself for disappointing Jake, I still felt my Saviors mercies and love. 

All moved in....

 Although Ginny left almost a week before her move in date, we were able to leave Tuesday, August 17th after work to move Ginny in on Wednesday August 18th.  She only had a 3 hour window assigned and two of those hours she waited for room keys.  It was a long drive but worth every minute to just see her space and let my momma heart know she is was going to be okay.  Her roommate has not yet shown up but I am okay with that because I do no have to worry that she may be a negative influence on her. She seems to be enjoying it.  

Aubree has been working alot, like almost each school night. I worry about her not getting enough rest but she has a strong work ethic and seems to be good at time management.  She is glad to be back to school in person, as are the boys.  

Walking back from getting her ID...they will miss each other.

Waiting on Ginny to the keys to her room

Obligatory dorm picture

Charlie was a huge help moving Ginny in.

Jake and his buddy, Travis Donald.

My main squeeze...headed to dinner.

Just  typical evening in the Farrell home.

Our neice Izzy was baptized on August 21, Jake spoke on the Holy Ghost and did a great job as usual. Here is a copy of his notes:

Holy Ghost-best teacher
 
Teaches truth at the right time (my best friend died in a car accident, this was supposed to be my adult friend, we were going to learn to adult together, a few years later while sitting in church a voice came to me and said Travis is alive)
 
 Can use mistakes, bad choices, and tough times for our good… there are no tests

never have to be alone- Spirit stays with you when your friends go home and family sleeps (last night had bad feeling, asked Renee to cuddle me but she just snored in my ear, so I sang I am a Child of God and felt the Spirit)
 
The Holy Ghost loves you for who you are
 I am a school teacher, no one of real consequence, introverted… it would be easy to doubt me, but the Holy Ghost has never said that I am not enough.  

The HG is involved in the details of your life (cutting my hair today, Renee was not there to warn me, and I do like the few strands I have left, a small voice came to my mind that said cut carefully or you will end up with a shaved head, 10 minutes later this is the result).

How do we receive the Holy Ghost
Be a deliberate disciple
pray and share stories with God
Read to learn
Love to serve and serve to love

Ginny is off....

 On Wednesday August 11, the evening was spent giving father's blessings and hugging Ginny bye.  Thursday morning while we were at work/school, she ventured off to college. Although she does not have to be there officially until the following week, she had decided to go ahead and take off.  Many tears were shed Wednesday night. I have seen Jake cry now four times in our marriage and one was during his father's blessing to her.  Thursday after work when we pulled into the driveway I was a little weepy coming home to an empty driveway and knowing the little black car will most likely not be parked in the driveway for long periods of time again.  Then I made the mistake of going upstairs to put up towels and seeing Ginny's shelves and drawers in the restroom empty and walking to her room to it all packed up as well and many things taken.  It was sad for me.  Although I am happy for to experience living away, it is hard as a parent to let go and not worry.  Her dad left her pieces of advise and withdrew money out of the bank to give her, against my better judgement.  I conceded to not put up a fuss when he gave it to her because he said that he did not want anyone else to give her what he was unable too.  However my train of thought, she has no bills (we pay her phone and insurance) and I got her a three month supply of all items  (feminine products, laundry soap, shampoo, body wash, etc) except food and she has a meal plan for that.  I would have also much preferred transferring to her bank account of needed.

Friday the 13th brought it's own little pieces of life to our family too.  I had to run home during planning to get Will more shoes, Aubree was sent home from school to quarantine until 8/23 because the person she drives to school tested positive for Covid, and Christopher told us that he has been made front of at school for passing gas and rumors had been started (do not worry, I went Saturday morning and bought him Gas-X but it does not make me feel better he is insecure).  As for Aubree, I contacted the school and once I provide proof she has been vaccinated and she gets a negative Covid test, she can return.  

Jake and I are planning to drive up Tuesday after work to move Ginny in on campus Wednesday. Her assigned time is 1-4.  She was not given the weekend time because she is a second year.....which irks me because it is still her first time living on campus. I feel Covid has stripped me of Ginny's senior year, Ginny's freshman year of college, and now Aubree's senior year but Jake reminds me Covid also gifted us an additional year with Ginny and so much time last year trying to stay home for months.

Just playing with blue light glasses on 8/13/21

Ginny on a date with Dallin Gardner (8/9/21)

Aubree's first day of her last year at high school

Back to School

 Summer has come to end for the Farrell family. Jake and I went back to work on 7/29 and the kids (except Ginny) started back today.  Aubree is a senior this year (Wowzers), Will is in 8th grade, and Christopher is in 6th.  It is Aubree's last year of high school, Will's last year of middle school, and Christopher's first year of middle school.  We were able to take Aubree for her yearbook photo and I snapped a couple quick more.  We hope to get senior pictures when it cools off a little. Ginny is leaving Thursday to prepare for school and spend a couple of days in Knoxville before she moves in next week.  I am not ready for this but it is coming. Last Wednesday was our last family dinner together and it made me so sad. I am excited for her but it is bitter sweet. 

My beautiful Aubree headed for pictures