Saturday, January 30, 2016

I see miracles from above

It seems as if I had shed a tear many tears each day since 12/31/15 and Papaw has consumed my mind. However, I had two days this week where I was tear free. Last night, we drove to Atlanta to spend the weekend at Sarah and David's because Brennan is getting the priesthood. As we were driving my mind raced with all the events of this last month. As hard as it is and as sad as it can make me, somehow I managed to see the good that had happened too and be reminded of the tender mercies. My mind wondered from the doctor telling us "he is dying" to walking back in the room and being able to talk to him and call my siblings, from seeing him just lie in the hospital bed to him raising his eye brows, squeezing my hand, and trying to speak, from the heartbreak of seeing him to the heart warmth of memories that rushed back. We loved each other big so at this temporary separation, I hurt big. Sandra sent me this pictures this week and it brought joy to my soul. I am certain there will be many more tears shed but I plan to try to laugh and smile many more too. I have a wonderful life and am blessed with many great people in it. 
I have seen the tender miracles from the Lord. 

Friday, January 22, 2016

Papaw's Eulogy

This may have been the most difficult thing I have done but he deserves a tribute from those so dear to him. Delivering it was very hard but I wanted to for my Papaw.... William Edward Litton May 2, 1931 – January 15, 2016 INTRO – It is a great honor to be able to deliver a few words about our "Papaw", William Edward Litton. I had the opportunity to spend the last 38 years with him and learn invaluable lessons and create happy memories. My heart is full as I have listened to many share stories and tender moments of this beloved man over the last two weeks. How do I do justice to this noble man who touched so many? I can’t. But what I can do is give you a glimpse into a beautiful life. When I first started trying to plan out this eulogy for our Papaw, it really seemed impossible. He fought for our country, raised two children, helped raise three other young men, and was a warrior for God. Our Papaw was one of our heroes, so providing a glimpse into his life in a few words seemed like a lost effort. Papaw (William) was born in 1931, the year the Star Spangled Banner became the national anthem. Papaw was the only boy of 10 children, a bright little face in a troubled world. But his was a happy home with loving parents and siblings. Word on the street is that he may have been his parents' favorite child, being the only son, but I will keep that source to myself. Papaw “grew up during and after the Great Depression. Most people had clothing and food. His recollection is of hurrying home after school, grabbing a rifle and hitting the Forked Deer river bottom to hunt or fish. Papaw loved his parents and learned many things from them, including the value of music and raising his voice in song. Some of his fondest memories of his parents were of hearing his mother sing and daddy playing his harmonica. Papaw bloomed into a handsome young man, with a radiant smile and a quick wit. Papaw had an unsurpassed love for his country and served courageously in the Vietnam War as a member of the United States Air Force. After retiring from the air force, he continued to serve our great nation and worked United States Post office. The first love of his life was a lady named Virginia Pauline Jones. They were married in 1962 and lived a very full life until June 1994. Together they traveled the country and various parts of the world with his military career, leaving that area a better place because they were there. About a year after the loss of Mamaw, Papaw married Bertha Lucille Rodgers in 1995 and they embarked on their journey in this life together. Papaw loved his children, Diane and Ed, and the ones inherited with marriage. His children were his world. Papaw, a Hero to them, leaves behind large shoes to fill. It was his imperfections that made him perfect to us. Papaw may have left this world for a better place at Jesus's feet, but his words of wisdom, and all that he taught us will never leave. Let me revise my statement from a few minutes ago that "His children were his world", that is until grandchildren came, which he then became known as "Papaw" to all in 1977. He wanted to teach his grandchildren the value of work. He had them mowing the lawn before they could see over the mower. Standing out there with them the whole time watching to ensure safety and that a treat could be earned when they job was finished. After the mowing was complete, it was often rewarded with a trip to the little county store in Beech Bluff, where two treats could be chosen and enjoyed. Courteous to all, he was known by name as were his grandchildren- he ensured that. Papaw took an interest, or at least made his grandchildren think it was an interest, in things that were important to them. Although he professed to be a great hunter and would go squirrel hunting with the boys, gaining the nickname as "The Great White Hunter"; he actually just sat by the trees to feed the squirrels and be with his grandsons. Papaw gave the best advice; he told his granddaughters that they "could love a rich man just as easily as they could a poor man". Papaw showed by example pure love and how to make others feel loved. Even as adults, he was very involved in the lives of grandchildren and their families. He would often have small containers of quarters that he would give with a hug to the great-grandchildren. Papaw would proudly tell anyone that would listen about his grandchildren and their accomplishments. In the words of one of his grandsons: "Tell Papaw that he's the best grandpa we could've wished for." One thing I remember vividly about Papaw was his ability to try to share the gospel with conviction. Papaw joined Beech Bluff Pentecostal Church in October 1992. His words were precise and insightful. And he lived what he preached. I heard him testify of many gospel principles over the years such as loving others, exercising faith, or being diligent and faithful in all your days. I also saw him live those principles as he struggled to cope with the physical and emotional anguish of diabetes and other health issues that arose. Papaw spent most early mornings in prayer meeting at church with other members of his congregation. As the possibility loomed of him not being around for his family, he did his best to make sure everyone was taken care of. It was not unlike Papaw to show up at your door, usually waking you up, with sausage and biscuits at 7:30 or even earlier some days to share breakfast with you. His last days were selflessly spent trying to comfort those he cared for by conveying his love and letting his loved ones know that he knew they loved him too. His final days were a reflection of the life we enjoyed with him. He made us laugh as he told the nurse he was George Washington or that he was on the moon. His gentle eyes brightened our days. He squeezed our hands to warm our hearts. He called us by name, knowing those are just the words we needed to hear. At parting, we look forward to our next reunion. In the Christian hymn " Each life that touches ours for good" there is a line that states: “Thou sendest blessings from above Thru words and deeds of those who love”(293) This is how I think of Papaw – his words and deeds radiated the light of the gospel and love. And now, instead of being an angel to us here, he will have to touch our hearts from Heaven. Papaw did not fear his exit from mortality, when asked his thoughts on death, he stated: "The old must die so the young can also travel this road of life.” “I would prefer to part expecting to meet my people in Heaven. No Goodbyes." Papaw, this is not a good bye but simply a till we meet again. We love you.

Papaw's Obituary

William Edward Litton (1931 - 2016) It's difficult to measure the life of a good man in a few words. William was born in Jackson, TN and learned a lot about girls growing up with 9 sisters. It must have been a relief when he started working for the railroad. After receiving a degree in accounting from Lambuth University, William enlisted in the United States Air Force. to serve his country faithfully for the next 22 years. During this time he married Pauline Jones. William retired as a Senior Master Sargent and worked for the United States Postal Service for 18 years. In 1992, he joined and became a faithful dedicated member of the Beech Bluff United Pentecostal Church for the rest of his life. His wife Pauline passed away in 1994. The following year, he married Lucille Rodgers. He was preceded in death by his parents, George Forrest Litton and Georgie Lee Jones Litton; his sisters, JoAnn Tomlin, Louise Childress, Georgie King, and Frances Parelli. He is survived by his wife, Lucille Rodgers Litton; one daughter, Diane Eaton (John); one son, Edward Litton (Sherri); six step sons, Donald Lomax, Roger Lomax, Van Lomax, Danny Rodgers, Tommy Rodgers, and Dewayne Rodgers; two step daughters, Teresa Rodgers and Debbie Jones; five sisters, Virginia Pusser, Lilly May Pauley, Carolyn Noel, Margaret Gaggley, and Tommie Seigler; six grandchildren and 12 step grandchildren; his two children, six grandchildren, and 18 great grandchildren will carry on his quick wit. William, Bill, Brother William, Daddy, and Papaw (all names he was known for) was an amazing man who served his country and his God well. He leaves a legacy that will be remembered and cherished. He was a force for good in many people's lives. The family will receive friends on Monday evening, January 18, 2016 from 5-8 p.m. at George A. Smith and Sons North Chapel. The funeral service will be conducted on Tuesday, January 19, 2016 at 1 p.m. at George A. Smith and Sons North Chapel with interment to follow in Hollywood Cemetery.

Papaw's Funeral

The funeral was held on Tuesday, January 19th, 2016. I can honestly say that it was one of the hardest if not the hardest day of my life. Visitation the night before was very hard but it was it was the first time I have seen him in his air force attire he was so handsome. It was very hard for me to leave the funeral home that night. Jake put together a slide show with pictures that people had sent. It was BEAUTIFUL. It was a wonderful reflection of his life and truly showed that his joy was found in family. The funeral service itself was as nice as it could be for a funeral. There were 3 songs sang, my dad (John W. Eaton Rochelle) delivered the obituary, I wrote and gave the eulogy, and Brother Curtis Howard delivered the sermon. Brother Howard did a great job, he mentioned Mamaw too and the love and influence that she had on his life. I had practiced for the eulogy and thought I was prepared but as I approached and glanced to see Michael crying, I got choked up. Jake was prepared to take over and I motioned for him to come but somehow, his presence near me gave me the strength to continue. At the graveside, he was met with 10 members of the air force saluting him as his shiny, blue casket was removed from the hurst. There was a trumpet played, 7 members of the military fired off 3 shots giving him a 21 shot salute, and 2 young airmen folded the flag that was atop his casket. Two of Lucille's sons were pall bearers along with Brent, Rob, Michael, and Jake. My heart was crushed as I watched my brother, husband, and 2 brother in laws place the white roses on top of the casket. It was even harder to leave the graveside than the funeral home. I was not ready for him to be put inside the ground or to say bye yet. I love that man so much! During the service, Brother Howard described Brother William (Papaw) as steady and stable. As I have thought about those two words, he is exactly right, Papaw was a steady and stable force in my life. I never doubted that he loved me. Our Papaw spent his life cheering us on, now he becomes a silent guardian and forever in our hearts. The next two days will be some of the most difficult for our family. There are few greater men than this and we are blessed to call him our Papaw. We could not love him more and we always knew he loved us and our families (attending all he could, lunch dates, throwing the softball, texting, birthday cards, and a visit anytime we were in town.I will forever be grateful for the last two weeks that I had with him, I felt the tender mercies and miracles of the Lord.

Friday, January 15, 2016

God be with you till we meet again...

This morning, January, 15, 2016 (at 9:05am) my beloved Papaw passed from this mortal life into the next one. There's not an important moment in my life that I can recall he was not there for me. The past two weeks, memories have rushed through my head. He will be sorely missed and I already miss him. I am trying to remain calm today and this far, I have. Mom texted this morning that his blood pressure was dropping so I called Jake and we both took half days but right at a little over an hour, we received news he had passed. I still left school and went to have lunch with my boys and check them out. Papaw loved to eat a good meal, especially meeting for lunch, so what better thing to do than to carry lunch. I feel very fortunate that I was able to see him almost daily. There's no doubt in my mind that he knew we loved him too. My life is better because of him. 

Monday, January 11, 2016

My dearest Papaw

New Year's Eve will forever remain an evening that brings back a sore memory of the night that Papaw suffered a stroke, that led to his eventual death. I was able to spend the night at the hospital with my Papaw on Friday and most of the day Saturday. I enjoyed watching him sleep that night and would not have been any other place. He has been there for me countless times and I felt like I was there him for a little time. Last night, the doctors told us that "he is dying" and there were two options: 1. hospice, taking him off the tubes and allowing him an easier death or 2. prolong his life but he would never make it home, he would go to nursing homes and most likely back to the hospital multiple times (that life would only be sustained a maximum of 6 months). Lucille has to make the final decision and as hard as it is, I only pray that she chooses what he would want. My hearts hurts so deeply and it is hard to imagine him not being here. Papaw has been an integral part of my life, I can not recall a time that he has not been there for me or my family. He drove up for Ginny's first talk, attended Aubree's choir performance, and was all the event that were a big deal to me that a recall. He is an exemplary example of a grandparent. At church Sunday, we sang "God be with you till we meet again" and I felt like I was singing to Papaw, he looked so fragile and non-responsive Friday and Saturday. Yesterday (Sunday), Jake and I decided to make a quick trip down after church but it ended up being much longer than quick. Papaw has been unresponsive for a couple days but last night, the Lord granted me a tender mercy allowing my Papaw to wake up for a few minutes, this will forever be one of my most treasured memories. He knew exactly who I was and said "hey Nae", I told him Jake was here and he said "hey Jake". I told him he had to speak up that I was deaf and he said he was hard of hearing too. So I joked about us both having selective hearing. Then the doctor came in and he was able to state his name but was unaware of where he was. After the doctor pulled us out of the room and spoke with us, I went in and face-timed (call and talk live with each other) with each of my siblings so they could tell him that they loved him and he could tell them. One of my favorites, was when I told him that I was going to have James clean his teeth, he opened his mouth wide for James, and then said Charity could clean them. After all of them had a moment on the phone with him, I stepped aside privately and told them each of the doctors diagnosis. I am sure we cried a thousand tears each last night and mom probably more. Ginny and Aubree sang him "I am a Child of God" and after all left, we brought the boys in and Papaw said in the best voice he could at the time "hey Will" and then a little lower, "hey Chris". My life is better for having a part of it. It will be extremely hard for me to let him go but I can only imagine that Mamaw is there waiting with open arms. Each year my heart has a little ache on Father's Day because that is the day that I lost Mamaw (06/19/1994)and now I am sure each new years eve will be a sore spot for me as well.

Saturday, January 2, 2016

Baptism Day and Papaw

The last few days have been some very emotional days for me. New Years Eve, I received a phone call that Papaw had suffered a stroke and was in ICU. Immediately, I left and went down for the 1:00 visitation with my sisters. He was stable but did not look like my Papaw at all. He was so bruised and fragile. Funny thing is that you believe your parents and invincible until the one day the are not. My Papaw means an incredibly great deal to me and I am so very close to him. I went down the next day as well (Friday). This morning, (January 2, 2016) I was awoken by a phone call about 6:30 that his scan was showing more fluid, swelling on the brain, and he was unresponsive. They also spoke about putting him on life support, without showering or anything, I hopped in the car and headed to Jackson. Michael, Sandra, and I arrived at the hospital about the same time. He woke up and spoke the best he could to us. His speech is still slurred but at least he woke up. I was not able to stay as long as I wanted and it was very difficult to leave but it was a big day for my boy. Jacob William was baptized this morning at 11:00. We were surrounded by family, yet I was a little sad still that my Papaw was not there but lying alone in a hospital bed. Michael, Grammy and Papa, Nana and Papa, Sandra and Brent, Chris and Crystal,and Sarah and David, had traveled down for it. Rebekah and Charity were also there. It was a beautiful service, a little different because some were in jeans (but I was 110% okay with that). Here is to hoping that Papaw knows and feels the love that we have for him and that he is not in pain. He is one of my heroes! My eldest son bears the name of some of the most dear to me: Jacob (after his father) William (after my dad and Papaw). I did not get any pictures but my dad snapped a couple, thank you dad. 


 Baptism of Jacob William Farrell January 2nd, 2016 Bartlett Second Ward, Memphis North Stake Presiding and Conducting…………………....Bishop Joey Hale Pianist………………………………………….Devin West Chorister………………………….……………Ginny Farrell (sister) Opening Hymn……………………………….. Baptism (children’s hymnal) Opening Prayer……………………………….. Rebekah Eaton (aunt) Talk on Baptism…………………………………Chris Farrell (uncle) Special Musical Number “A Child’s Prayer” by various family members Baptismal Ordinance for Jacob William Farrell Performed by Jacob L Farrell (father) Witnesses: John Eaton Rochelle (Papa) and Tommie Farrell (Papa) Interlude Video Special Musical Number “The Miracle” by Aubree Farrell Talk on the Holy Ghost……………………..……John Eaton Rochelle (Papa) Confirmation Ordinance for Jacob William Farrell Performed by Jacob L Farrell Welcoming Remarks……………………..……. Kate Wilson, Primary President Welcoming Remarks……………………………Bishop Joey Hale Closing Hymn……………………….………... I am a child of God (# 301) Closing Prayer…………………………………. Michael Eaton (uncle)