It's good to be home

While our getaway was great to just be together, it was also great to come home to my babies and their embraces the next morning.  There truly is no place I would rather be that I would rather be than with my little six member family.  Coming home, we hit the ground running and were busy as ever the next morning.  To be honest, I almost feel that I have too much going right now. I have picked up a home listing and two potential clients to show homes too, which is a blessing to our family.  LulaRoe is going okay as well but I could not do it without my sisters. I have had parties every weekend and feel tired all the time.  I feel this week has been extremely exhausting; there have been things each night that I have taken me away from home. Ginny found out this week that she made the high school softball team.  She was gleaming when she got the news and while I was happy for her, it adds a little more stress to figure out the boys in the afternoon since she is not home to help. I am sure glad for her though.  Jake has his first challenger series competition tomorrow and he is a bit nervous about that but  I am certain it will be good.  After that we have a LulaRoe party at the house and a stake dance tomorrow.  

Last day in Cabo

Tomorrow we head back to the states from Cabo.  As beautiful and relaxing as it is here, and as much I am loving just being with Jake, I miss my kids. It has also been nice to get to visit with the adults in Jake's family without kids too.  Often there are times in which I wish they knew me better and vice versa, so this has provided a little time to know them better.  As a young adult and teenager, I always envisioned a close relationship with my inlaws, seeing them often, being loved by them, and feeling like 100% a part of the family where my crazy could show and no judgement passed.  Possibly because growing up we were around both sides of the family often and I knew people wanted their son and I to grow up and work out because they loved me.  With our relationship (mine and Jake's), we do not live close to his family nor did we know each other growing up,  so it can be more challenging to know one another, yet I do not doubt they love us or me.  We have laughed many times on the trip together and had nice conversations, which I have enjoyed.  It has been a good trip.  Today, we also ventured on a zodiac boat (I am apprehensive about the safety of this) to whale watch.  I am a little paranoid of a person and wanted to make sure that I return safely to me sweethearts at 

home.  

Cabo Getaway

Yesterday, Jake and I flew to Cabo to meet up with his parents and siblings for an adult getaway. I was quite reluctant about leaving our kids and even had mentioned needing to get a head injury as to not have to leave them.  My sisters stepped up and offered to take care of the kids while we came and mom would help too.  This elevated much stress but I still do not like to burden others with things. Wednesday, the day before we were to fly out, I decided to go to the doctor because my throat had been a little scratchy and was diagnosed with strep. Argh!  They sent me home from work early as well. I ran by the grocery store to get a few last minute things for the kids and decided to make Chris an appointment too to be safe.  I like to think it was mother's intuition because he did not ever say he felt bad, nor complained but he too has strep.  This made it more difficult to leave them but here we are in Cabo and it is beautiful! My worries about my children are very minute because all three of my sisters are going out of their way to help and mom is staying with them Sunday night.  Dad drove up to attend Will's pinewood derby with him.  He placed 3rd and got most creative car. He was pretty excited when I spoke with him on the phone this evening.  As for me, I am feeling better. Last night, I tried my hardest to ward off not feeling great..I even went a little nuts and went to dance when volunteers were asked for....remember I have absolutely no rhythm and I had allowed myself to a have a rough afternoon.  My feelings were a little hurt by Jake yesterday but I can not blame him. I think the medicine plays with me sometimes and I was very tired from not sleeping much in preparation for the trip. He had asked if I wanted to "walk down to the beach, go to the pool, or something" with he and his brothers and I declined saying I was busy (I was trying to chat on-line with the cell phone company to ensure we could use our phones here is Mexico). He said that I could not not work and did not know how to not work.  I decided that maybe I should change and go but not get in the water because I think it is a bit chilly.  A few minutes later when I walked out, everyone was gone.  I was bothered that he did not tell me he was leaving nor did he has his phone for me to find out where they went.  And I had just mentioned to him on the plane that I did not always enjoy being around family because there are times when I feel like my ideas/feelings are less and he chooses them.  I know it is insanely ridiculous to be bothered about and I am sure I read into it and let it get to me.  I do not doubt he loves me but sometimes I look at others and want to be wanted that way, smiled at endlessly as I approach, or want to experience the beauty of a place first, even if that means waiting a minute. I want to be taken by the hand and just spent time with.  It is such a beautiful place here and we have the opportunity to be here and enjoy it.  I realized this afternoon that I was wrong for allowing myself to get that worked up and apologized again.  I am fortunate to have him as my eternal companion and husband.  It is imperative to me that my kids see a happy marriage and are all close to one another. I want the boys and girls to love each other, look to our marriage as an optimal example of love, and always feel equally cherished by their parents. 

Mean girls and my crazy boys

Today we leave for Cabo, as excited as I should be I am more leery too.  This is the first time we have left our kids for this length of time and yesterday, I decided to go to the clinic because my throat was a little scratchy and I waned to get a cocktail shot for sinuses (I had self diagnosed myself as a sinus infection) but t my dismay, I tested positive for strep...yuck.  As a per-cautionary means, I made Christoper an appointment too he tested positive for strep too, making it more difficult for me to leave my sweethearts this morning. I get so so nervous that one will get sick and when you are sick you need/want your mom.  My sisters and mom will be great with them and I know they are not in better hands but it makes me so nervous.  Yesterday, Aubree came to me last night as I was taking out trash and wanted to talk a minute. An unkind remark was made at lunch directed at her about controlling her weight and it hurt her feelings. As a mom, I wanted to just cry with her but expressed her beauty and worth as a child of God and explained that sadly there will be people her whole life that will say unkind things.  It makes me beyond sad when I see any of mine babes hurt in any way.  It is a hurt that can not be explained but I just want to take it away.  Yesterday, I checked lunch accounts to make sure that the kids all have money on accounts since we will be gone and I was not surprised to see that Will has depleted his since 1/21/17.  He has been buying ice cream, milk, and  guess second lunches after he eats (or shares) what I have sent for his lunch.  It was a tad frustrating but comical on the same hand.  Speaking of comical, last night Christopher was persistently calling for his brother before he got out of the bath.  Moments later Will came to the kitchen with an empty body wash container filled with urine that his brother was bragging that he peed in.  After asking Christopher, he said he did pee in the empty container. We asked why because the toilet is right there too and he "just wanted to", my boys are a different story than my girls but I love them all!  Christopher also has his own sense of style. He came out Sunday for church in red pants, a multi-color striped shirt, and a red, white, and blue tie. Lastly, last Friday night (1/28/17), Jake and I went to see "The Bodyguard" musical at the Orpheum and I was pleased.  Jake sent me a photo and text from school saying looking forward to tonight. There were chocolates on the counter when I got home from school and I was greeted with roses as we left. We had planned to go to dinner but Jake had a headache when he got home from school so he napped a few hours. We did have a quick, romantic dinner at CiCis' pizza (in and out within 15 minutes and the man loved pizza). The ending of the show was very engaging and I frankly just enjoyed looking at my husband. Many times I wonder how I was so fortunate or blessed to call him mine.  Initially when we first met, I was not that physically attracted to him but now, there is no one I am more attracted too. Sunday was a special stake conference that the counselor in the General Presiding Bishopric presided over.  There were a couple of times that day that I felt the urge to blog and share my small testimony that God lives, knows us, and it is never too late.  One of the ladies that spoke was a mother with six small children. She (Kate Wilson) expressed how she had to ask many days for forgiveness for raising her voice at her children, or being discouraged that she feels that she falls short.  It was refreshing to hear that struggles (inwardly and outwardly) of another mother because motherhood can be so difficult at times yet the most rewarding thing ever too. I can only hope that my four sweet children know that I am giving it my best and most of the things I do is for them and their father.
On a last note, we received Christopher's t-ball pictures from last year. What a cute kid he is.