Rain, rain, and more rain.  It seems to constantly rain. We have been busy with state testing at school and baseball/softball in the evening.  Jake's parents sold their house, so this past weekend the siblings went up and literally helped clear it out.  They gave everything away. Jake brought a living room suite and bed back for us. We are thankful to have it.  I told him he should've brought the golf cart back to use when driving to the pool but he declined the opportunity.  Ginny has  Mormon Prom this weekend and we are trying to find a shawl to help make her dress modest.  It is proving more difficult than I thought.

Baseball and softball season are in full swing here in the Farrell household.  It seems that each night we either have practices or games.  I am also currently working with three clients looking to buy homes, so I feel so tired most nights because I do not get home until late and still have to make sure the house responsibilities are done and lunches are packed.  It will be nice though when my clients find a home and the checks start coming in.  The past couple of nights have not been great for me. I just feel frustrated at the world and know that I need to change my attitude...I would not want to be around me if I were someone else. 

Seventeen years ago on this date, a tall, handsome, blond hair (yes he had hair) young man took me for a day trip to Carlsbad caverns. He was not kind most of the day (which made no sense because that same morning, I heard him tell his mother he loved me), causing a hiccup in his plan. Due to his unusual behavior, as we were driving on some trails, I hopped out of the car and refused to get back in until he told me his problem. After minutes of trying to convince me to get back in the car, he went to turn it off, came back over to the rock where I was sitting, and asked me to marry him. Best decision I ever made was saying yes and following through with it a month later.....the rest of our happily ever is still unfolding. 

Happy Easter

Yesterday, we went to mom and dad's for an egg hunt and a taco bar.  The kids very much enjoyed egg hunting. It seems that Easter has meant a little more to me this year as I reflect on the resurrection and that because if Him, loved ones that have gone before live and I will live again.  I will one day be reunited with those I miss every day.  On the drive down we streamed conference and listened to it.  Additionally this Easter day, we watched conference as well.  It seems there have been so many changed announced this conference including: 2 new apostles called (Elder Ulisses Soares and Elder Gerrit W Gong), no longer will priesthood quorums (elders and high priest) meet separately, and home/visiting teaching to be "retired" and now ministering. Young women ages 14 and up can now join with the adult sisters in the ward to have ministering responsibilities. Elder Uchtdorf spoke on beholding the man and it spoke to me . When encompassed by sorrow or griefs behold the man. When you feel lost or forgotten, behold the man. The most important day in our individual life will be the day we learn to individually "behold the Man" I loved Sister Bingham and Elder Hollands talk as well explaining more about ministering and looking out for one another. Oh, and the previous mission president Elder Taniela B. Wakolo's talk made me smile.  I remember listening at stake conferences when he and his wife spoke, she always stood by his side and vice versa. I was a little disappointed that she was not by his side during his conference address. Overall, I am grateful that I am able to listen to conference wherever I am.  I am thankful to know that be because of the Man that I can see my loved ones again.

Sweet 16!

Yesterday, Ginny celebrated her sweet sixteen. It is nearly impossible to believe that she is sixteen and old enough to date.  Thursday evening, we went to the Orpehum to try to get ticket for Ginny to see Wicked.  We did not get the lottery discounted tickets but were able to still get tickets.  She, Jake, Aubree, and Estella (Ginny's friend) went. They seemed to have a good time.  Last night, we had her a little party and she also officially was asked on her first date to Mormon Prom. I am not sure that Jake nor I are ready for this stage in our life but we sure do love her. She's a good egg.
According to you:
You currently want to be when you grow up a dental hygienist
Your favorite color is gray or pink
 Your favorite show is The Office always
Your favorite games are the ones I win
Your favorite toy or activity is softball
Your favorite girl is myself
You are really good at wasting time or cursive
Your best friend is Stella
You want to vacation to Europe
Your favorite ice cream is any kind
Your wish is to be a better person
Your hero is Jesus
Your favorite thing to do with your friends is play games or just hang out
Your favorite holiday is Halloween
Your favorite person in the whole world is me of course 
Your favorite song is throwback jams
Your favorite restaurant is anywhere not Mexican or pizza
Your favorite foods are: candy, haystacks, ramen, pineapple, or buffalo dip
 If you had $1000 you would buy an automatic car

Happiest of Birthdays to my main squeeze!

This good looking man celebrated his birthday on Friday. He stayed home from school, kept the boys home, saw a movie, and then started Will on his colon cleanse medication that he has to do for three days.  His colon is over 1/3 full of poop and there should be no poop at all in his colon. This man is my squeeze, my everything. He is the frosting on my cake, the chips with my salsa.  He makes me better in every way and my days are so much better with him in them. To my Jake- I love you more than words can describe.

What do I want from the Savior?

For some reason last night, I allowed myself to get very discouraged. I was not counting my blessings and comparing myself to others.  I had saw where someone that I know was surprised with a new car and I my mind decided to think "why am I not showered with gifts from Jake", "why is that I work so hard but am not fortunate to have exquisite things",  "why am I not beloved", and other crazy things.  Yet, as I laid in bed last night, I thought of all the wonderful things I do have and all the simple, small tokens of love and gifts that I am showered with from Jake.  He has a way of making me feel okay with who I am.  I love finding notes from him and gestures such as washing my car, vacuuming my car, holding my hand, a brush across my back, or simply re-filling my water bottle. I am truly blessed but what I find more ironic is that is seemed that the Relief Society lesson today was exactly what I needed.  Rebekah, my sister, taught it and the lesson was based on a talk from general conference last October entitled "Value beyond Measure" by Joy D Jones. I thought I would share some of the parts of the talk that stood out to me and lifted my spirits.  Often, I think there are times where we forget our divine worth or feel down on ourselves and need reminders. I have no doubt that today's lesson was exactly what I needed.
"...worth means to value ourselves the way Heavenly Father values us, not as the world values us....worthiness is achieved through obedience."
"No matter what, we always have worth in the eyes of our Heavenly Father.Despite this marvelous truth, how many of us struggle, from time to time, with negative thoughts or feelings about ourselves? I do. It’s an easy trap. Satan is the father of all lies, especially when it comes to misrepresentations about our own divine nature and purpose. Thinking small about ourselves does not serve us well. Instead it holds us back. As we’ve often been taught, “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”We can stop comparing our worst to someone else’s best. “Comparison is the thief of joy."
"If we choose to focus on our negative thoughts and doubt our worth instead of clinging to the Savior, it becomes more difficult to feel the impressions of the Holy Ghost."
Oh and one more thing that stood out from sacrament today were two questions that were asked to contemplate: 1. What do I want from the Savior? and 2. What will I allow the Savior to do for me?