Accidents, accidents, and accidents

Recently, I am not sure what is going on in my life. I seem to be in lala land most days and not fully with it. As a result, I do not pay attention like I should and do not even seem to realize. About two weeks ago, I was at a stop light and somehow eased off the brake, I am assuming, without realizing and bumped the car in front of me. I was not comfortable giving out insurance information without a police report, so we had one taken and I was issued a ticket....which I knew I would be. However, the lady did not pursue anything because it was such a light bump. Then Sunday evening, we went to Jackson for my dad's birthday and to get the kids because they spent the weekend there, so we could continue to "declutter" the house. Well, we had a pleasant day but as we were leaving I saw all the families cars and did not bother to look over my left shoulder and it slipped my mind that someone else was there too. So, I backed into their car. Instead of filing a claim, we wanted to pay out pocket, thinking the damage would be a few hundred back but it came back at about $1300. So my negligence has costs us more than anticipated. However, mom, dad, and Sandra were great. Mom let us borrow her van and dad was able to repair mine pretty good. Sandra offered to pay for the damage if we needed and us repay her. Despite their kindness, I still feel like crap and beat myself up for it. I feel like an emotional roller coaster, oh did I mention our computer crashed....I am hoping I have all the photos on it uploaded to get printed. I spent an hour uploading photos 2 days before it happened, maybe it was the Spirit. So, I feel like my life has had a little rain but I still try to see the rainbow. At least, I have a supportive family that provides unconditional love. The kids make me smile. Last week, Aubree informed us that there are "millions of car crashes....trust me, I know, I ride with mom", how cute is that. Ginny tries to see the upside pf everything and is plans her baptism everyday. Will is working on potty training, working is the key word there. Daily, I try to remember my blessings and I know other people have far worse issues than mine. I am alive as is my family and we are all healthy. Oh, the night of the accident, I called to make sure the person made it home and that her husband was okay. Jake spoke with her to ensure she gets the car fixed at a place where she is comfortable and then I hear him say...do not worry "Renee is the woman of my dreams". That may be one of my 2nd favorite things I have heard him the say. the 1st is before we were married and I heard him assure his mother that he loved me....he was not aware at the time, I heard it. I do not ever doubt his love for me. He was upset but never said an unkind word and like my mom and sister, he tried to reassure me it was just a mistake and things would be okay. He says I always need to pay attention though.