Peace

Last night, I was able to attend a session at the temple and a sealing for a couple in our ward. There are times when I believe the sessions creep by but last night, it went by quickly for me. As I sat through it, I felt complete peace and that was much needed for me. You see, a couple weeks ago, I went through a crazy spell, maybe pregnancy hormones, but nonetheless, a crazy spell and I felt like I failed at many things, including my callings, seeing that I was Primary president for right about a year and released, to be called to Relief Society presidency, and released from Relief Society presidency at right under a year too. I know I did my best but somehow Satan can sneak in and catch us at a weak moment and we allow ourselves to feel diminished. I allowed that to happen for a couple days. The crazy left but being at the temple brought me a new sense of peace that I needed to feel in my life, in general. We have so many things happening in our lives and changes being made this summer that maybe I was experiencing inner stress as well but last night, I knew everything would work out.
On a different note, I took the kids to a little splash park tonight and they enjoyed that. I should have prepared a little for the arrival of out new little one but for some reason, I keep putting it off. It is all still surreal to me, although I could safely deliver at anytime. The poor baby has no where to sleep right now, diapers, or clothes in anything....I am not usually a procrastinator (procrastination is one of my pet peeves) but have literally done nothing. Maybe in my mind, he will not come until things are done. I do not enjoy pregnancy but at the same time I am not ready to have another baby. We did not for see our little summer trials when we conceived and I know bringing another child into the world is a great responsibility and with each child financial obligations increase. However, I also know with each child, love increases and happiness. I wonder my new little man will look like and what disposition he will have. I just hope that I can prepare each of my children to return to our Father in heaven on day, to enjoy life, serve others, see the good in people, and be happy.